He's also looking extremely dubious at that?? He may or may not agree, it has yet to be decided. First, though, he nods, and it's his turn to look rather weary.]
Yes. I am aware. [They don't keep too many secrets, unless it's about his rendezvous with Wei Wuxian, but that's different.] I believe she has recovered. But we do not yet know what happened. [A pause, and a quiet sigh.] She is still quite stressed. It will take time.
[After all, who would trust themselves after something like that?]
if lan wangji tells shinobu beau will suplex him. shinobu doesn't need to know beau dreamed about killing everybody in town including her, god. anyway. she pulls herself up to sit on the counter, scrubbing at her face. ]
Yeah. I don't blame her, you know, like I know it wasn't her. I'm all healed up, so she has nothing to worry about with me. [ sigh. ] I'm glad she's got you on her side. Hopefully between the two of us we can make sure she doesn't take that shit too hard for too long. She doesn't deserve that.
[SHINOBU MIGHT FIND OUT ON HER OWN and then what will Beau do!! Huh!!! Honesty is the best policy, says Lan Wangji, who lies through omission all the time. Shut up.]
Mm. She will be glad to know you are healing. [Not "doing well", since... if Beau was doing well, he wouldn't be here at ass o'clock.] I will do all I can for her. But I know she will appreciate your support.
[A pause; when he speaks again, his expression hasn't changed, but there's something softer about his tone.]
[ beau glances at him, shoulders coming down from around her ears just a bit. she's a tough girl, but - there's something about the softer tone that makes her feel like maybe it's okay to not have to swagger her way through. it's kind of nice. ]
... Thanks. Really. [ she says, genuinely. she swallows hard. give her like two seconds, and then: ] What about you? I'm not the only one having these stupid nightmares, right?
[She can swagger if she wants, that's fine too. He doesn't need his Seer powers to tell she's got a good heart--if his dearest people are both fond of her, then that's reason enough for him to be quietly, stubbornly supportive.
But, ah. As she's likely already gathered, Lan Wangji's expression doesn't change all that much, but there's no mistaking the unhappy way his mouth tightens.]
Mm. [...] Mine have not been dissimilar to yours.
[Lan Wangji could not care less about his general reputation. The safety of his loved ones, on the other hand--he'll do anything for that, and his nightmares know it.]
[Does he? ...Honestly, no, not particularly. But he saw her dream, lived it with her, and it's only right to offer her the same insight.
He's never been very good at opening up, often overwhelmed by the strength of his own emotions. But he's getting better at it, so after a thoughtful silence, he speaks.]
...Different instances. Some happened, some did not. [He thinks of a mountain ablaze (his imagination) and the dark lair of a monster (a reality). His people are all alive and well right now, but in the dream...] I am always unable to save them.
[ she nods a bit, kicking her heels against the counter. ]
Yeah. Me too. [ sigh. ] That's - not even the first time I've had that dream, either. It was the first one I had. They suck, they're disorienting, and I mostly just wanna fucking sleep. But that doesn't even stop them, you know? Hunter doesn't sleep and he still has them too.
[ deep breath. ] ... That's the scariest thing, right? Being unable to save them.
Mm. [Another silence, as he tries to figure out how to phrase what he wants to say.] ...They want us to be safe, too. It is important that we try. [Just like they don't want their loved ones throwing themselves into danger for them, the reverse is true as well. It would be the height of disrespect, not to acknowledge that.
Of course, they'd still gladly die protecting the people important to them. Not even getting the chance to try... that hurts far too much.] But it is... difficult, to imagine losing that choice.
Yeah. I try, but honestly, I could give a shit if I get hurt if it means my people are good.
[ which she knows her friends know. they all get super pissed about it, but she's stubborn. she reaches to start pulling her hair back, haphazardly putting it in a ponytail. she hasn't shaved the sides of her hair in a while - it's a fuzzy mess. ]
[ i was gonna ask but i thought it was funnier to leave them there forever for posterity ]
We're getting all these omens and dreams, all this bad shit happening. People getting cursed, the meteorites, all that. And we're supposed to be looking for the Maou. [ she glances at him, solemn. ] You think the Maou are the cause of all of this? What are we gonna do when we find them?
[Hm. That's a complicated question--especially for Lan Wangji, with his ~divine task~ and all. Though, honestly, he wouldn't have needed the incentive.]
I believe the dreams meant to imply the Maou would cause great harm. [He himself had gotten pretty mixed messages, but he still doesn't know how to explain that, so he doesn't.] But I find it difficult to believe they asked for this.
[So... no, he doesn't really think they're the cause. There's a relation, probably, but he hasn't seen any reason to pin the blame on them yet. And even if they had prayed to the gods for extra powers, or something--unless it was with the specific intent of destroying the country, Lan Wangji's reluctant to judge them.
As for what to do with them, well--it's the same thing he's been telling everyone else.] I would like to ask them for help. Koun is their home. They must have something worth saving here.
[ she watches him for a long moment, taking all that in. her expression is carefully blank. ]
I don't think any of them asked for it either. [ she says, finally. ] What do you think they can do? You think they can stop that darkness from coming?
[He's quiet, after that, but it's a pregnant silence, as he considers how best to convey himself.]
...I do not know if you are aware. But I have the ability to see a person's true nature. [She can probably guess how much people like that! Haha!! There's a lot of reasons they live high up in the mountains, not just a preference for solitude.] The kindest faces sometimes hide the cruelest hearts.
[Of course, people are complex. It's never so simple as pointing at someone and saying "yes, you are bad". Still, between that and his time living in Yamate, where relations with humans have always been somewhat tense--well. He doesn't assume the worst of people, but he's rarely surprised when they aren't at their best.]
We have been led to believe the Maou hold great power. But I am more worried that some who seek them have ill intentions.
[He's not ruling out the idea that the Maou intentionally desire chaos and calamity. There's simply too little evidence either way. But people get greedy, when power is involved. Hunter's vision has (or will?? idk time) only cemented that.]
[ the ability to see someone's true nature definitely makes her want to like, jump out the window. but she stays where she is, still watching him. he can take his best shot and see her nature. beau's not even sure herself, sometimes. ]
Yeah. Wei Wuxian said the same thing. [ and she agrees. ] There's gonna be some kind of mob, if shit gets worse. Find the Maou, they're the cause, so if we kill them, they bad shit will end. Or you maybe if you find them, you can take advantage of them. You know?
[ she rubs at her arm. ] Maybe the Maou have no fucking idea what they're doing, no more than any of the rest of us. So finding them isn't even going to help.
[IT'S FINE HE USES HIS GUQIN he won't spring it on her out of nowhere.
The mention of Wei Wuxian softens his expression, because he is stupid and predictable. It doesn't surprise him to hear it--they've always had very similar morals, especially in this world, with no devastatingly bloody war to corrupt him.]
Even if they cannot, or will not help, they deserve to be protected. A person's worth is not defined by their perceived value to others.
[A soft sigh, then.] It is understandable that they do not wish to be found. But there is nothing I can do for them if I do not know who they are. [A pause; he hasn't really asked this of people he's not close to, but she's trusted him with her worries, and he gets the feeling that's not something she does often.] If you hear of anything, will you tell me?
[ lan wangji pulls his guqin out of his pocket and does it right here, where was he keeping it, who knows
but no - they deserve to be protected, he says, and beau actually smiles a little, glancing up at him. ]
... Yeah. [ she says, leaning forward a bit. ] I'll keep my ear to the ground. I'll have something for you when I come see you next. Got some stuff I'm following up on.
[STOP HE'S NOT WWX his hammerspace sleeves store a reasonable 25 items the size of a large boulder the size of a small boulder.]
Mm. I will keep you informed as well. [Not that he has any information to share yet, but. He's both patient and stubborn. Sooner or later, he'll be back with information.]
I will ask Shinobu to deliver some tea, to help you sleep. [A pause, and then, more reluctant--] I will not tell her about your dream. But there is a chance she could see it herself.
[He'll probably tell Shinobu Beau's been up at night worrying about her friends, which is... truth-adjacent, so it's acceptable. She might not buy it, but if he says nothing, Shinobu will definitely know something's up. He refuses to lie outright, so this is the best he's got.]
There sure fucking is. I'd really love to not share any more dreams, but - whatever. [ she sighs heavily. ] Still - I appreciate it, man. You don't have to do shit for me but here you are doing it anyway.
[ a beat. she leans down and reaches behind her under the counter, grabbing a bottle of wine. it's the same kind she sold him the other day. she shoves it towards him. ]
Here. Take this, don't argue. Thanks for checking up on me.
[He won't reject her gift, though--he takes it with a small bow of thanks. He can't say "rest well", because that's out of her control, so he murmurs a soft word of thanks before he bows again, a little deeper, and quietly takes his leave.
He really hopes Shinobu doesn't stumble into one of Beau's dreams, for both their sakes.]
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I - don't fucking tell anybody. [ beau says, first, fiercely. ] Don't tell anybody what you saw, not even Shinobu. Definitely not her.
... Tea might be nice, though. Hey, is she doing okay? Last time I saw her, some shit happened, and it was a whole mess.
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He's also looking extremely dubious at that?? He may or may not agree, it has yet to be decided. First, though, he nods, and it's his turn to look rather weary.]
Yes. I am aware. [They don't keep too many secrets, unless it's about his rendezvous with Wei Wuxian, but that's different.] I believe she has recovered. But we do not yet know what happened. [A pause, and a quiet sigh.] She is still quite stressed. It will take time.
[After all, who would trust themselves after something like that?]
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if lan wangji tells shinobu beau will suplex him. shinobu doesn't need to know beau dreamed about killing everybody in town including her, god. anyway. she pulls herself up to sit on the counter, scrubbing at her face. ]
Yeah. I don't blame her, you know, like I know it wasn't her. I'm all healed up, so she has nothing to worry about with me. [ sigh. ] I'm glad she's got you on her side. Hopefully between the two of us we can make sure she doesn't take that shit too hard for too long. She doesn't deserve that.
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Mm. She will be glad to know you are healing. [Not "doing well", since... if Beau was doing well, he wouldn't be here at ass o'clock.] I will do all I can for her. But I know she will appreciate your support.
[A pause; when he speaks again, his expression hasn't changed, but there's something softer about his tone.]
You have ours as well.
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... Thanks. Really. [ she says, genuinely. she swallows hard. give her like two seconds, and then: ] What about you? I'm not the only one having these stupid nightmares, right?
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But, ah. As she's likely already gathered, Lan Wangji's expression doesn't change all that much, but there's no mistaking the unhappy way his mouth tightens.]
Mm. [...] Mine have not been dissimilar to yours.
[Lan Wangji could not care less about his general reputation. The safety of his loved ones, on the other hand--he'll do anything for that, and his nightmares know it.]
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You okay? Do you wanna talk about it? [ at least she's asking and not demanding... ]
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He's never been very good at opening up, often overwhelmed by the strength of his own emotions. But he's getting better at it, so after a thoughtful silence, he speaks.]
...Different instances. Some happened, some did not. [He thinks of a mountain ablaze (his imagination) and the dark lair of a monster (a reality). His people are all alive and well right now, but in the dream...] I am always unable to save them.
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Yeah. Me too. [ sigh. ] That's - not even the first time I've had that dream, either. It was the first one I had. They suck, they're disorienting, and I mostly just wanna fucking sleep. But that doesn't even stop them, you know? Hunter doesn't sleep and he still has them too.
[ deep breath. ] ... That's the scariest thing, right? Being unable to save them.
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Mm. [Another silence, as he tries to figure out how to phrase what he wants to say.] ...They want us to be safe, too. It is important that we try. [Just like they don't want their loved ones throwing themselves into danger for them, the reverse is true as well. It would be the height of disrespect, not to acknowledge that.
Of course, they'd still gladly die protecting the people important to them. Not even getting the chance to try... that hurts far too much.] But it is... difficult, to imagine losing that choice.
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[ which she knows her friends know. they all get super pissed about it, but she's stubborn. she reaches to start pulling her hair back, haphazardly putting it in a ponytail. she hasn't shaved the sides of her hair in a while - it's a fuzzy mess. ]
Hey, question for you.
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Mm.
[They know, he thinks. But he doesn't know her relationships well enough to say that out loud, so he keeps it to himself.
Instead, he tilts his head, curious. What question?]
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We're getting all these omens and dreams, all this bad shit happening. People getting cursed, the meteorites, all that. And we're supposed to be looking for the Maou. [ she glances at him, solemn. ] You think the Maou are the cause of all of this? What are we gonna do when we find them?
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I believe the dreams meant to imply the Maou would cause great harm. [He himself had gotten pretty mixed messages, but he still doesn't know how to explain that, so he doesn't.] But I find it difficult to believe they asked for this.
[So... no, he doesn't really think they're the cause. There's a relation, probably, but he hasn't seen any reason to pin the blame on them yet. And even if they had prayed to the gods for extra powers, or something--unless it was with the specific intent of destroying the country, Lan Wangji's reluctant to judge them.
As for what to do with them, well--it's the same thing he's been telling everyone else.] I would like to ask them for help. Koun is their home. They must have something worth saving here.
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I don't think any of them asked for it either. [ she says, finally. ] What do you think they can do? You think they can stop that darkness from coming?
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[He's quiet, after that, but it's a pregnant silence, as he considers how best to convey himself.]
...I do not know if you are aware. But I have the ability to see a person's true nature. [She can probably guess how much people like that! Haha!! There's a lot of reasons they live high up in the mountains, not just a preference for solitude.] The kindest faces sometimes hide the cruelest hearts.
[Of course, people are complex. It's never so simple as pointing at someone and saying "yes, you are bad". Still, between that and his time living in Yamate, where relations with humans have always been somewhat tense--well. He doesn't assume the worst of people, but he's rarely surprised when they aren't at their best.]
We have been led to believe the Maou hold great power. But I am more worried that some who seek them have ill intentions.
[He's not ruling out the idea that the Maou intentionally desire chaos and calamity. There's simply too little evidence either way. But people get greedy, when power is involved. Hunter's vision has (or will?? idk time) only cemented that.]
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Yeah. Wei Wuxian said the same thing. [ and she agrees. ] There's gonna be some kind of mob, if shit gets worse. Find the Maou, they're the cause, so if we kill them, they bad shit will end. Or you maybe if you find them, you can take advantage of them. You know?
[ she rubs at her arm. ] Maybe the Maou have no fucking idea what they're doing, no more than any of the rest of us. So finding them isn't even going to help.
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The mention of Wei Wuxian softens his expression, because he is stupid and predictable. It doesn't surprise him to hear it--they've always had very similar morals, especially in this world, with no devastatingly bloody war to corrupt him.]
Even if they cannot, or will not help, they deserve to be protected. A person's worth is not defined by their perceived value to others.
[A soft sigh, then.] It is understandable that they do not wish to be found. But there is nothing I can do for them if I do not know who they are. [A pause; he hasn't really asked this of people he's not close to, but she's trusted him with her worries, and he gets the feeling that's not something she does often.] If you hear of anything, will you tell me?
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but no - they deserve to be protected, he says, and beau actually smiles a little, glancing up at him. ]
... Yeah. [ she says, leaning forward a bit. ] I'll keep my ear to the ground. I'll have something for you when I come see you next. Got some stuff I'm following up on.
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Mm. I will keep you informed as well. [Not that he has any information to share yet, but. He's both patient and stubborn. Sooner or later, he'll be back with information.]
I will ask Shinobu to deliver some tea, to help you sleep. [A pause, and then, more reluctant--] I will not tell her about your dream. But there is a chance she could see it herself.
[He'll probably tell Shinobu Beau's been up at night worrying about her friends, which is... truth-adjacent, so it's acceptable. She might not buy it, but if he says nothing, Shinobu will definitely know something's up. He refuses to lie outright, so this is the best he's got.]
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There sure fucking is. I'd really love to not share any more dreams, but - whatever. [ she sighs heavily. ] Still - I appreciate it, man. You don't have to do shit for me but here you are doing it anyway.
[ a beat. she leans down and reaches behind her under the counter, grabbing a bottle of wine. it's the same kind she sold him the other day. she shoves it towards him. ]
Here. Take this, don't argue. Thanks for checking up on me.
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[He won't reject her gift, though--he takes it with a small bow of thanks. He can't say "rest well", because that's out of her control, so he murmurs a soft word of thanks before he bows again, a little deeper, and quietly takes his leave.
He really hopes Shinobu doesn't stumble into one of Beau's dreams, for both their sakes.]